Tuesday, March 17, 2009

First day back to work

Yesterday was my first day back to work! Lets just say I was a little overwelmed. I was so sad when I left the house at 4 in the morning I cried, then I cried as I drove to work and then I cried again as I walked over the Mother baby and Labor and delivery unit to draw some blood. I was able to pull it together and it turned out to be a good day back! I wasn't to worried about Brookee bc Clarke's mom had her and I knew she was in good hands. I was just sad that I couldn't be with her but everything worked out and it was ok.
I was also worried that I wouldn't remember how to do my job. There were some things that I did have to freshin up on but I was able to draw blood like I had been doing it for years, So that made me happy and my co-workers really appreciated it....LOL! I love my jobs so much, it was nice to be back but I love being home with Brooklyn too. it's so hard to know what is the right thing to do; should I work and keep the insurance or is it best for our family if I don't work and take care of things around the house and possibly qualify for medicaid or nothing at all?? What is a family to do.....? We just do the best we can with what we are given!!!!!
Brooklyn is the best baby in the world and is changing so much everyday, I don't want to miss out on anything. I just love her so much!!!!!!! I feel like she has to get to know me all over again. That hurts a little....I'm sure that is not intirely true tho but it feels that way bc I was gone for 13 hours yesterday!!!! We will work at it!


Stephen & Jill Williams said...

That is such a tough decision to make! One thing that helped me be more comfortable going back to work with both my girls was because President Hinckley always stressed the importance of women getting an education because there might be a time in our life when we need to use it and we should be prepared. That time in my life came while Stephen was in school. Maybe that time in your life is while Clarke is in school. It won't last forever!

Tori said...

Hearing about your day back to work makes me a little sad a nervous for mine...I have 2ish weeks before I go back...but it's good to know it gets easier!

Also the flower bows I made myself, I'm so not crafty but they were pretty easy to make...my older sister makes the head bands out of knee-highs [if that makes sense]

I can't believe how big brooklyn is getting, you need to post more pictureS!