Birthday

It's my birthday. Wahoo. I'm now 27 years old. SOO SOO weird
I just wanted to post something on my bday.

WoRST Blogger EVER!!!

I am the absolute WORST blogger EVER!!! When I'm in school I just get so overwelmed with the thought of documenting all our lives experiences small or big, mostly because I am SOO behind. And I already do homework 24/7 or study so it's just hard for me to sit here and write some more and think of all the fun stuff we have been up to.. I'm sure it's just pure laziness..haha I hate it..I'm trying to be better...... After school is over next week I think I plan on taking it day by day to catch up so I can be current so it wont be such an ordeal to keep track of our awesome lives.. LOL

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fitness in the works

I'm writing this for my records really and so I can look back and remember my feelings and struggles to help me get through the tough times while trying to achieve my goals. Sorry it's a little long, you don't have to read if you don't want to.

I have been struggling with my weight for a good while now...a while being like 3 or so years. I guess since I started having kids, but this goes even before the kids. I blame the birth control. Ever since I started taking that pill I gained like 25 pounds or so and haven't really been able to get it off. Doctors and nurses will say that it doesn't directly effect your weight but I disagree, it messes with your metabolism and hormones and that in turn effects your weight and whole body outlook. I'm determined to get my metabolism back to normal or a somewhat normal state.

During 2009 I started exercising after I had Brooklyn, I really wanted to get into shape so I went to the gym a few times a week and ran on the tredmill and also joined a boot camp. I lost like 15 pounds which was huge. I felt great and my clothes were fitting me comfortably. I then learned I was pregnant again with Peyton, I was thrilled of course and kept on working out to keep my body in good shape. I was able to work out until I was about 7 months along and then it just became to painful to do much so I gave it a break. When Peyton was 8 weeks old, which was in Sep/Oct of 2010 I started running again and was able to run 2 miles, 3 days in a row with no problem. I tried to make sure that I drank enough water and ate enough to keep up with my working body so I could supply Peyton with enough milk, but after the 3rd day of running I didn't have enough after all to feed the poor little man. I got really freaked out and stopped working out which was wasn't the best solution for myself but it was the best thing for Peyton. I had a little bit of a hard time getting my milk back. But I ate lots of oatmeal, anything with yeast, and drank rootbeer and Peyton seemed to be just fine with what I had to offer. Because I stopped working out and have always heard to eat 500 extra calories a day to help feed the babe, I gained all the weight back from the year before. I'm pretty sure it was because I was so paranoid so I over ate. I was doing it all wrong. I was ok with it at the time though because it was the best thing for Peyton, So I thought. I later learned that as long as I ate good meals 6 times a day then my body will adjust and should make all it needs for my baby. But everyone's body is different.

In January I signed up for a boot camp that turned out to be totally awesome, I didn't really see any results but it helped to watch what I ate. I ate good and healthy meals but I had a hard time keeping the sugar out of my diet and still do. I don't think I over do it but it's just enough to keep me from reaching my goal. I've got to get some will power. after the boot camp was over I started a awesome work out at Icon. It has given me the most results so far. I lost 12 inches off my waist and keep losing inches just not much weight, I am really not to concerned about the weight anymore just the inches and how I feel and look. The only problem with me and the workout is it is at 6:30am and I have had a hard time getting up early because I stay up to late for school or because i want to spend more time with Clarke. I'm supposed to go 3 times a week and I usually only go once or twice but in the last 3 weeks I haven't gone at all. Clarke was gone for the week for scout camp and to Vernal for work so that means no early morning work outs. I also started watching my friends little girl who is 8, she gets to my house at 3:45am so I wake up to make sure she gets in ok and then I go back to sleep but I have no desire to get back up at 6am so I just sleep in and try to go running at night.
Lately I have not been trying to hard so it's my own fault. If I want results then I have to put the work into it and work really hard. This last week on Wed. I got sick and it kind of stuck with me everyday since. My stomach and appetite just hasn't been the same. I'm not sure if I still have a bug or what. I took a pregnancy test so I know I'm not pregnant. I just hope it goes away. I have made a new goal and am going to be strict with myself with the help from Clarke, ICON, and my new friend Kayla. I am determined to lose weight and feel good about myself again. I hate my arms, bum, thighs, stomach, shoulders, chest, chin, and face. the only thing I like about my body right now is my calves, feet and hands. I hate pictures of me too. I'm not depressed about it or anything, I try not to let it get me down because only I can change it and I know what I need to do to change it. Those are just some things that I really am not happy with right now. Someday I hope to be happy with how I look again and I know it will happen!!

Summa summa summa school.....

I was so excited to start summer school, even though I just barely got through a long 4 months of hard work during spring semester. Was I crazy?? Yes, I think just maybe so!! Honestly I have really enjoyed my classes this summer and what I have learned. I haven't so much enjoyed turning down friends offers to join them at the pool or the park and I mostly haven't enjoyed keeping my kids locked up inside because I had to finish my homework and study for my big tests. It hasn't been as bad as it sounds though. I have probably neglected my homework more then my kids, which is a good thing, right?? Depends on how you look at it, I guess!!! I know there is nothing more important then my family and I remind myself I am doing this for them and myself. One day it will all pay off!!

My Microbiology class is finally over and I am hoping for a good grade. LOVED the class. Next week will be the last week of class for me until August 25th when Fall semester starts up. Hopefully I wont have to ever take Biology 1010 ever again.. it was OK while it lasted but it's a dang good thing it's almost over. I don't think I will go to summer school ever again, don't quote me on that though.. I may change my crazy mind someday! We miss out on so much that I miss the whole point of what summer is for. Summer is supposed to be a break from school, duh, apparently I missed the memo on that, obviously!! LOL Oh well at least I have two more classes out of the way. I only have two more semesters left and then I will have my associates degree and will be able to apply for the Nursing program, WAHOO. I am thrilled and can not wait for that day!! My stomach is turning as we speak just thinking about it, It is my DREAM!! well besides, of course being a mom, which is the BEST!!

Don't worry, even though from what you have read it seems like I have totally neglected my kids for some school work, this just isn't completely true. haha I have done quite a bit with them and have tried to keep them the most important thing insight. We have gone to the pool a few times, played outside with friends, colored with sidewalk chalk, gone for walks, gone to Bear Lake, gone to lots of parades, seen fireworks, saw LOTS of awesome cars at the Cruise in, played in the backyard, gone on some bike rides, and next weekend it is the Cache County Fair and Rodeo; My favorite summer activity. I look forward to this time of year every year. The following weekend we are headed to Bear Lake with my family for some camping and swimming, whoop whoop, can't wait!!

So even though this summer has been a summer full of momma studying in the back room, study groups, tests, watching lots of TV shows and some outside time we have had a great one and it's still not over...Hooray!! Next summer will be even better too, Can't wait!!

A LOT of catching up to do.....

I just looked thro all the pictures I took from Sep....(which is where i need to start off from.....since I have neglected posting about our life since..except for the one about my totally AWESOME friend Heather....) and there are A LOT.. I am the WORST blogger in all of history.. So for the next little while, if I can get away from studying and kiddos I will be working to catch up on this pretty little thing....check back often for fun little "old news" posts...yippee!!!

up's and down's and all around's....

This post is really long....it's really for my personal journaling purpose. So you don't have to read if you don't want to...

My thoughts have been scattered all over this beautiful Sunday day. I woke up from a strange dream (I can't remember what it was, just that is was strange)and it made me feel different and weird, got ready for church and got the kids ready as well and headed out the door to get to sacrament on time for once ha ha, yes we are late for sacrament a lot.. I HATE it!!!
During the last talk the bishop got up and took over, I thought he was going to tell us that the gentlemen speaking had some things wrong and was going to correct him, I was a little nervous for the guy because if I were him I would be have been worried and embarrassed that I did something, or said something wrong. This was not the case, thankfully, poor guy.

Bishop Sansibury instead said that Country manor (a small neighborhood in our ward) was flooding really bad and there were problems. He dismissed us from church early in hopes that with everyone's help they would be able to get the flooding under control. Clarke was able to run over there to help sand bag and help evacuate family's out of their homes, as it was mandatory from the city officials. Clarke has been over there since about 10am and it is now 4pm and he just got home. He said there is still a lot to do and he felt bad for leaving but he needed to come home and pack and take a break.. They got most of the water pumped out of the streets and yards. Thankfully no one was hurt but I'm not sure about some people's homes. There was water damage but I don't know how much!!
Here is a picture of what it was like over in Country manor!!! That is Clarke's truck...


Man do I miss my husband. He has been gone a lot lately. Doing side jobs, sand bagging, helping neighbors and working. His hard work sure is appreciated by so many I'm sure. He is such a hard worker and I am proud of him and lucky to have his as my husband. I told him that he better not make any plans next weekend because we all are going somewhere just us family and spending the whole weekend together.

This morning when I got home and Clarke left I got on my phone and checked out facebook and saw that there was a post from my dear dear sweet, I would even say one of my best friends.

Let me explain a little about her before I tell you what the post said. I hope she will be Ok with it... (I'll delete it if you want me to) She has been trying to get pregnant for a long while now, like a couple of years. She has a sweet little boy named Kade who is 3, he is such a sweet and funny kid, I love reading all the funny things he says and does. She got pregnant just after I had Peyton back in August. When she told me to read her blog and watch the little movie (about how she was pregnant) she sent out I couldn't help myself and just cried in pure excitement and JOY for her and for her family.. Her and her family were thrilled to add another family member to their family. She said she was due on May 15, 2011. For Christmas they had the ultrasound lady wrap up the sex of the baby so on Christmas morning they could open it up and find out what they were having, (it was a super cute idea). They learned they would be having a baby girl. Yay!! Ever since I have known Heather she has talked about how much she has wanted a little girl someday so she could name her Hadlee, the name Hadlee is signifagant because it means "fields of Heather". My friends name just so happens to be Heather. So I was thrilled for her. As she prepared for her new little baby girl to arrive, she sowed up a cute little purple crib skirt and blanket and made the nursery as sweet and cute as ever. I haven't seen it fully done but what I did see was so nice. She is talented, I don't care what she says..haha!! Heather had a few baby showers and I was grateful I could attend one of them and see all the fun things she got from people. There were so many cute clothes and gifts, people were so generous. I was really so excited for her to dress her sweet baby girl up in these beautiful things and have her own beautiful daughter. Heather is a beautiful lady and she cute Pregnant. Heather texted me on May 2 at 10:39 am and told me that Hadlee was on her way and they were at the hospital waiting for her arrival. She told me she was hardly effaced, so I figured that it may be awhile. I hadn't heard anything from her again... I texted her hours later to see what was going on, if she was ok, or if she had the baby yet, but no response. I thought either she was just so tired and needed rest because family was there or something had gone wrong. I checked facebook and saw that Dustin, her husband, had updated his status and said that the baby was born with a cleft palette but she seemed fine. Then a little while later she was in the NICU she would stay there until they took her home on May 13th. They learned more things about their sweet Hadlee. She was born with Trisomy 13. Her body organs were in perfect condition but her brain couldn't tell her body what to do so she had a feeding tube and 24/7 care. They learned that it was a miracle that she was still with them and she probably didn't have much longer to live. That was really hard to swallow for everyone, esp them... their sweet little baby girl.

So again back to this morning at around 10:30am when I checked my facebook account this is what it said: "Our sweet little Hadlee took her last little breath at 3:48 this morning. She will be forever missed and we will remember her everyday. We know she was a special spirit sent to us to bless our lives and the lives of those around us. Thank you all for the support you've given us during these past couple weeks."
At this point I lost it and just sobbed and mourned with Heather.. I couldn't control myself and cried hysterically. It's so incredibly hard to watch someone who you love and care about so much go through something so terrifically difficult. I believe with all my heart that the lord was with Heather, Hadlee and their family 100%. There is no other way to get through something so difficult. I am still crying and trying to hold it together.. I just feel the pain she has to bear and the love she must be feeling for that sweet little Hadlee, who will be forever missed. I have no idea what she is going through but I can imagine what it must be like and I feel so bad and sad for this trial in her life.

Me and my friend Nicole were able to go visit her just this past Wednesday and I'm so glad we were able to sit down with her mom and Heather and talk to her about everything and try to comfort her.

I'm glad that she has shared so much with me and everyone it has really been a true testament of truth to me of what a family means and what it's all about and how special each moment is with your kids and any family member. Being a parent has really opened my eyes to what I need to do better and what to not take for granted. Our babies are such precious little spirits sent from heaven and we are in charge of them while they are here on earth and what I HUGE blessing that really is. There is no greater calling then to be a mother. It also has really made me think a lot about the gospel and what it really means to be a part of it and about what faith is and putting your trust in the lord.

While being around Heather you can feel that beautiful spirit that Hadlee brings, I have a whole new respect for her. I thought she was so great before but she is even greater now and so AMAZING. I admire her strength and courage to move forward with trust in the lord and faith and the knowledge that she will be with her Hadlee again and that Heavenly Father had a plan for her family. Heather you have strengthened me and same with Hadlee. I could feel her sweet spirit when I read about her, or when I was around you, Heather. You will be able to take that with you forever and touch every life you meet. I am so very proud to be your friend... I feel so very lucky, You have always been such a great friend to me and I will always be grateful for that. I love you!!!! You and your awesome family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Love You so much!!!!!

1-11-11

Today is 1-11-11 pretty sweet..

School started yesterday and I am pretty happy about it. I am taking Math 0900 and English 2010. I had to start all over with my math since it had been over two years since i had taken a math class, oh well I suck at math and could use the refresher, I' a slow kid. Maybe this English course will help me with my writing skills, I am lacking quite a bit..But I am tired right now and being super lazy so whatev...I am actually excited to go back even though there is a LOT of work ahead of me I know I can do it and I know it will be well worth my time. I had to go to work right after school yesterday because I was filling in for someone who was sick. After my day was over and I went home I thought to myself "man I am so glad I made the decision to go PRN at work" (prn means as neededbut I only work wed, and right now I wish I didnt' even do that- I LOVE LOVE LOVE being home...but it is nice to get out and see my coworkers once and a while) There is no way I would be able to do that again-work full time and go to school with my two kids, My kids are the ones who get neglected and that is totally backwards. I just remember the stress of being at work when I wished I was at home with my family or at home working on my homework while the kids slept. and how bad I felt for leaving them and being away from them killed me..Either way I am a HOME body. I know Brookie is too because today at the doc she kept saying home, home home before the doc even came in the room. Ps Brookie is now TWO (pic and story to come later) Yeah my baby is TWO, weird. She weighs 29 Lbs and is 35 inches tall. She is such a cutie. The doc told me that he is very impressed with her and that she is above average in her speech. He said she was on the right track and doing awesome. She is the best thing ever.

1-1-11 Happy New Year peeps

WoW Lada... flip I have seriously been so busy.. I think about my blog often, however sitting down and actually posting my life stories is another thing.. It's a new Year So Happy New Year everyone...one of my new year's resolution is to Blog More. Lets see if I can do it. I have so much to catch up on so I better get going.

Update on life right now... I just changed my working status to PRN instead of full time. Yeah we took a HUGE leap of faith and are praying the lord will take care of us as we know it is the best thing for our family for me to stay home more with the most adorable kids in the whole world. There is seriously no where else I would rather be. More to come later with LOTS of picture.