I have been incredibly busy and therefore have had no extra time to blog and in fact I should be doing a homework assignment instead of blogging but I am super behind and wanted to get this in before the day set Feb. Which is tomorrow. ha!
This last year was one of the BEST and hardest years of my entire life. We opened the year to birthing the most beautiful little person in the world. Well I birthed Brooklyn. Clarke was there ha ha! When we were in the hospital I couldn't help but feel a little overwhelmed. I thought that I would have this amazing experience where I would just fall right in love with her and that she would feel the same. However I was so exhausted from labor that I could barely keep my eyes open let alone have any sense of what was going on. DOn't get me wrong I loved her more than anything I just couldn't express it for some reason. It was really REALLY REALLY hard to be a good mom, the mom she needed, I didn't know what I was doing, I felt lazy in a way even though when she needed me I was always there. I mostly felt, when I would look at her she would look back at me and think, mom you are crazy and I just don't really like you much. I have no idea why I felt this way, well I guess there are a couple reasons why I was feeling this way but I just didn't feel like I was going to be a good mom. Brooklyn has taught me the meaning of absolute hard work and sacrifice. I have never been more happy to have such a beautiful little girl in my life everyday. She is the best thing that I have ever done. That's what I said when she came out too. to be continued
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Posted by Brienne Alder at 5:49 PM
Saturday, January 2, 2010
This was our Burnett family Christmas party. I love my dad's side of the family. They are all the sweetest people EVER!! Our grandparents were the BEST and I'm not even kidding. I wish they were here everyday! Anyway every year we have what is called a grab box and usually everyone participates but this year was a little different. Because there are so many kids (our cousins kids) we decided to just have the grab box for them. My super generous cousins Nikki and Brady bought all the gifts so no one had to bring anything, besides the side dish they were assigned. I couldn't believe they seriously got all these awesome gifts for the kids. We were all blown away. They are the great. We had a lot of fun chatting and seeing everyone again. I love this time of year just for that reason. Here are some fun pictures of our eventful evening.
These are my cousin's kids and Brooklyn. They loved crawling around with her. It was cute to watch
Brooklyn got a cell phone.. he he just what she needs right..
Posted by Brienne Alder at 5:02 PM
On Christmas eve we went down to Syracuse to stay the night with my brother and sister in law with their two kids at her parents house. It was a lot of fun. Great food and fun prizes. That night and every christmas eve night My sister in law's family opens up all their gifts from each other. It was fun watching. The married couples got wheat grinders and a bucket full of wheat. Man what a sweet gift. I wouldn't mind one of those. My sister in law's sister got a Wii so for the rest of the night we played the Wii. We woke up Christmas morning at my brothers house to lots of gifts from Santa for the kiddos. It was really fun to watch my niece and nephew open all their gifts, I can't wait until I have a house full of kids. Brooklyn was so dang cute. Everything she picks up she immedatley hugs. So we got her this teddy bear that has been under our tree at home for weeks now and almost everyday she would crawl over to the teddy bear and give it a great big hug, but we would have to tell her sorry Brooklyn that is for Christmas so we would put it back under the tree. Well on Christmas morning we showed her where the teddy bear was and she crawled as fast as she could to it and gave it the biggest hug she was so excited. It was AWESOME.
We gave her a doll that she also loved and gave hugs to..at one point she had the teddy bear and doll in both arms hugging both of them. she is such a little snuggler.
We gave her some puzzles, some clothes and a walker. She loves al of them. It was a great first Christmas for her.
Clarke and I didn't have a ton of money this year because lets face we are poor collages students. We ended up making some crafts and selling a bunch so we could buy eachother gifts this year. I got Clarke some snow gloves he has been needing for plowing, a FOX sweater, some pants, and a couple shirts. He got me a couple shirts, some wrist/arm bands for working out, some hair stuff, and a sweater. It was great being able to get each other gifts. Even though that's not what Christmas is all about, it's just really fun to see the look on the faces whom you love when they open a great gift from you.
I am so thankful for our Savior who died for us and still lives for us. We are so very blessed to have what we have and to have such amazing families and friends. We Love all of you. This Xmas was so wonderful. I hope we don't lose site of who we are and to try to be a little more kind and generous throughout the year.
The very next day is always my Birthday. This year I am turning 25 Ya well I don't feel 25. It's weird how fast time flies. My family tries really hard to make it a special day for me esp my Amazing husband. Even my great friends remember to call or text me or even facebook me, whatever or however they do it, I really am so grateful for them all. Thank you Thank you!!!
This year A LOT of our family and friends chipped in and surprised me with one of the greatest gifts ever..hehe a Wii. I have been wanting a wii forever, but they are so expensive. When I opened it I seriously could not stop smiling I was so shocked I was in tears. I couldn't believe that I got a Wii. We spent the rest of the day relaxing going out for lunch with my birthday money and playing the wii. It is really a great family oriented thing. We have so much fun, my dad even comes over and plays with us and loves it. It is so awesome. Thanks again to all of you, you know who you are, who pitched in and got me such a generous gift. WOW I really do have such amazing families and friends. I am so very blessed!!!
Sorry about all the pictures.
Oh and we forgot to bring a bottle and the formula for Brooklyn..mostly bc I'm used to just nursing her and we were in a hurry hehe. So Clarke had to go to Wal-Mart and buy some formula and a bottle. Luckly we had two $7 check that Enfamil had sent us that day so we got a huge $20 thing of formula for $5..sweet deal. Merry Xmas to us!
Posted by Brienne Alder at 1:21 PM